My secret is out…

I got a mail today, and I had a similar one yesterday, that spoke of an upcoming business trip to Australia for two months that involves every aspect of all the things I love. Even as I write this, it’s only just starting to filter into my consciousness that my life has changed.

I am writing, I am being asked to write, I am involved with training and I am being stretched mentally and emotionally. Most exciting is that these activities are taking me exploring literally and figuratively – in short, I am blossoming. I am realising my dreams. Every one of them.

I got to thinking about the journey to this point and it has been a rollercoaster ride that has spanned so many years. As its said hindsight is 20/20 and I know that until now I would not have been ready for the desires of my heart to be manifested – I would have trashed them and spat out the bones in my hurry to keep my belief of ‘not good enough’ intact. In my heart of hearts, I have slowly come to accept that I am good enough, that I am precious and deserve all good that comes to me. My life is showing this by the external happenings aligning with the internal belief change.

By the way, for those of you who think this is some kind of ‘new age’ gobbledy-gook, let me remind you that: a) nothing is really new age, just re-packaged belief systems (great marketing campaigns that keep reinventing themselves), and b) no-one I know still believes “The Secret” stuff works, and c) finally I gave up on the ‘new age’ stuff years ago – my vote has swayed heavily towards the experiential tried and tested.

After years of trying all these systems I finally got to the real secret, my secret. Only I could undertake the hard yards, and there are hard yards. That my secret for success is that I learned to take action when opportunity presented itself, even when I was scared and unsure – I learned to say ‘Yes’ and take the chance. Through this I also learned to make opportunities. Like all things, sometimes things work and sometimes they don’t but I recently, (finally!) got it that sometimes it’s not about me and it isn’t personal.

My secret also developed the skill of knowing when to get involved and when to simply honour the moment by being a silent witness to another’s life (If I could put a warning label on this it would be: IT DOESN’T GET EASIER, BUT TEARS DO WASH OUT). Another secret was realising that a rollercoaster is a series of ups and downs and twists and turns but ultimately it comes back to the same starting point – my self. I got this when I realised through this blog that sometimes my experiences twist and turn on themselves and a month or two or three later I am writing another AHA! blog that when I look back was similar to one already written.

Finally, the biggest secret revealed in this blog is this: I finally acknowledged I cannot do it all on my own, I don’t have to and so I asked someone to mentor and coach me – a first for me and the best thing I ever did for myself (besides really falling in love that is).

That got me thinking about the people who have shared this journey with me, some of them walked some of the way, others waved goodbye at the start and then those who stuck it out, a handful of precious, keepers for sure. Thanks.

Thanks for being witness to my growth spurts, the changes, the twists and turns, the pain and the joy. Thank you for your encouragement and for staying the course for another year. You have kept me nourished and encouraged me with your presence, both the verbal kind and the silent witness type. I love my life and I love your presence in it, irrespective of whether I know you or not – you are an important part of my dream – writing. Here’s looking at the best year ahead ever!